Durian and x

today, my brain flew up into the sky, stopped, exploded, came flying right down with a splat. and died. Why brain, you might ask. Because...

1. If I say heart, it sounds cheesy.

2. All emotions come from the brain.

You know that feeling when you feel like something is lodged in your chest and you can't get it out?(Somehow I seem to talk a lot about this feeling) Or otherwise described as 'that mini-heart attack' well, apparently people assume that rush you get when you see your crush(hey it rhymes) but... that mini-heart attack also comes when you find out that your crush is DATING SOME UNKNOWN LIFE FORM IN YOUR DICTIONARY. Ooooookay. So here's how it went.

I was doing my daily stalking, when I found out that someone posted on X's profile something like "I knew you were going out with that xxxx girl blah. blah. blah."

then I died.

And the worst thing is that that girl (lets call her durian.) is nice. She. Is. Nice. So I know that I have no right to hate her. I mean, even if she wasn't nice, I still have no right to hate her because, BECAUSE, it was his decision to choose her.

But the funny thing is that I don't feel angry. A little dead, yeah. But not angry. I think it's because ... I don't know ... (I totally forgot what I wanted to say) OH. Right. Beeeeeecause...... durian is a cool person. and they kinda look cute together.

But that doesn't mean I don't hate X now.