WELL. I still think I'm on some Series of Unfortunate stuff gameshow or something. My life, is full of misfortunes, especially on the human relationship side. (I sound like an old man.) My happiness, is sometimes very short-lived, and sometimes, quite truly enjoyable. But how come I don't seem to remember being happy for a long time.
BEATS ME.
I think, if you know me, you'd notice that I am, according to the Enneagram, a 4 going on to a 1. What does that mean? It means I am a romantic going on to a perfectionist (i think i mentioned this before) Examples of 4-1s are Michael Jackson, Gwen Stefani, Johnny Depp... all these great people. But I guess the catch for me is that I can't stand to see people lose out. Especially my friends. No matter if they are extremely close friends or .... just friends.
So here's what happened.
It's the end of the exams, and me, val, kris and jared went out to eat some Ben and Jerry's. So far so good....
From young, I have been taught that I should never leave anyone out. (trust me, it was a very unfair process, because I used to leave my brother out then one day someone left me out and I finally knew how it felt.) Truth be told, I hesitated before asking her to join us. Not because I really disliked her, but because everyone else in the group did.
And now it's that point of time when I get to say, "HOLY CRAP! It's just like primary school!" In primary school, there used to be this friend I had. We were very close. I also had another friend. She was disliked by lets just say, the whole class. I don't know why, but I just wanted to go over there and be her friend so she would feel better and turns out, our friendship was a pretty nice one. Also a preeeetty hard one for me and my best friend.
Sigh
I'm not saying that my best friend was selfish, I..... let's just go on with the story.
So val and jared left after cheese came, and me and kris had some lemon sorbet+potato chips with her. After that we wandered around like souless people. We were in Cathay's cd shop and CHEESE WAS JUST IRRITATING THE HELL OUT OF ME.
I'm sorry, do you want to tease me about my crush a little louder so people in Mongolia can hear?
Do you want to use some glue to stick your butt to mine? (She was following me around everywhere)
Do you have some duct tape? (She was complaining and complaining that the cd shop was boring and then we came to Jason Derulo and and I was looking at his album and she just gave a passing comment that HE wasn't famous because SHE didn't know him. EXCUSE ME? god....)
Anyway, when we went to plaza sing, she kept on saying that she had to go to Marks and Spencers. But kris and I didn't want to go because it was so expensive in there. Besides, it was for old people. She kept on complaining and then I just said, "OK, FINE, WHAT DO YOU WANT TO DO IN MARKS AND SPENCER'S"
then somewhere down the road she's like "actually i don't need to buy anything from there."
previously, she kept on complaining that her friend ask her to buy some cookies and stuff then now, what? It was a lie? A pretty lame one too.
Finally, the time came when she had to leave, and Kris and I were just heaving a sigh of relief.
The non-stop talking, teasing me of my crush (which kris didn't know and I didn't want more people to know) the complaining..... everything was over.
after that me and kris went to see many artshops, got lost on the way to Bras Basah, and walked for 1.5 hours, and had the time of our lives looking and trying all the art stuff.
SO, here's where the fun begins.
I was planning a movie marathon at my house for val, kris, quesheth, annabelle and maybe cheese.
when we were so happy and finally arranged quite some stuff, I was sms-ing val who was coming and she asked---"Is *cheese* coming?"
and i said "maybe... she hasn't answered me but the chances of her coming are 1 in 20,000"
then after that she just said that she didn't want to come and asked me to tell the others.
As if I didn't know the others wouldn't want her there. But then again, how would she feel if she wasn't invited? And it's not like I don't consider val's feeling either. I'm just bloody mean. Now I just feel like I want to fuck everything kill everything and hide inside a cave and never come out. I may seem fickle-minded, but i'm sick and tired of always being the middle man. so now, i'm just going to sit back, watch the simpsons and throw everything away, temporarily.
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